addiction

my oh my....I havent seen him, havent received any sms or had any kind of interaction with him since my last entry...and I'm going coo-koo...I cant live without any interaction from him...I guess it's either he's angry with me for accusing him of playing me, or he's guilty as charged and dont want to have anything to do with me at all...either way...I'm suffering life without him...I'm so addicted to him....how in the world could I get rid of this addiction..I need to...really need to...I was hoping to bump into him today, but he was careful....he's smart in dodging me...I really miss him....I hate myself for losing him....I cant bear losing him forever, I could settle with a simple hi, a short casual sms occasionally, anything, any kind of interaction will do...I soo need it!!!

I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear

You got what you deserved
Hope your happy now
Cause every time I think of you
It's killing me inside
And now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness of living without you

And oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew

How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again
I hate myself for loving you

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I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine