Oh Yesssss....Oh Nooooo

such a loooong day it was for me....
he made my day by smiling to me and even greets me....oh my....my heart just blossoms....can't express how I felt at that moment, relieved, happy, scared, thrilled, most importantly...in love!!
yesss...yesss....yesssss!!!
and my heart pounds harder and harder at every glance of his face....
but at 10pm suddenly I felt my heart stop pounding for him...oh no...nooo...I do not want to stop loving him...I have always loved him....for the past three years I've loved him, and I want to love him for more years to come...in fact...forever!! but unfortunately the feeling's lost, suddenly, without any reason....and I'm feeling heartbroken with myself...
went out with him later, and to my dismay...i bore him as well as he bored me...there was no spark between us anymore...but I still miss him...miss the giggles we shared together, missed our fun friendship...mostly I miss the love we once shared...

my love is like a piece of string, when its put on too much pressure, it just snapped...
and once my feeling gets too intense (my feelings for him had been too intense lately), I guess it just snapped...lost forever....

I want to love him....even if I couldn't..I just want to miss him...and cherish all the wonderfull memories we've created together....I still love u....no matter what...I just know it...