succumbing into ever after

I'm married now..and guess what? that still doesn't change a thing..
but I know I cannot not get married? why? no particular reason, apart from sympathy, doing the right thing, just cant!
sex also doesnt change..same old dull boring yucky sex..I never thot I'd find sex as dusgusting, it should be exciting and addicted to, but with the wrong person anything's impossible :-p
I'm still preparing for another wedding ceremony of mine, and I've already started to regret of marrying, thinking that maybe I am not yet ready for marriage, or maybe I have not yet find the 'One'...but really, is there is the 'one'?? I dont quite believe so, I even feel that God is playing a joke on all of us, messing our lives, that must be very enjoyable I guess, wish I could mess someone else's life apart from myself :-p