Jealousy

sent him to the bus station just now...was nice spending time with him, pretending that nothing is going on...but meeting him, just made me realise of how much I trully miss him, chatting happily with him, to him maybe it's just casual, but to me, it was special, we talked about stuff, but we never talked about 'us'...why should we, there's no 'us' anymore..it's in the past, it's history, there's no use of me crying over it anymore, but I just cant help it...
and when hubby knows about this, he was so angry, I regreted telling him, I should just go out behind his back,cheat? no...just doing my own thing...marriage sucks, it's like being in a relationship, even worse, you have to report all you do, where you are, all the time...hubby was so jealous, I hate that...there's no freedom to be friends with any guy anymore...marriage dooms you to only being friends with your spouse, not even girlfriends...every second you have you must spent it with him, if he's not around, you cant spend any of your time with friends...but he could..now how fair is that??