miss...hurt...

I haven't seen him or heard from him over 3 months now..
the last message from him was a holiday greeting...but it was brief and not personal..
before that I wished him a happy birthday sometime august...he replied kindly but I was hesitant to say more...
now I just miss him more and more...it just breaks my heart not to hear any news from him...
it hurt me more to face the fact that he might have fallen for someone else..
a new girl who makes his heart blooms...like I used to..
if he only knew...that my heart still blooms at the very thot of him...i love u...i wish u knew...

Christina Aguilera - Hurt

Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..
By hurting you