Mixed Emotions

Every so often I think of him. I still miss him, how is this so....Yesterday I saw his car pass by, my heart jumps for joy...but as usual..nothing happened...just watched him pass by...

Why does my heart still miss you
Even when the love is lost for sometime now
Maybe it is guilt I felt inside
For cruelly hurting you
I beg of you
Please forgive me
I realise you and I can never be

"Let's not do this"
"do what"
"Pretend that we're friends!"